exhausted

i love this whole summer camp thing im so tired my kids wore me out and when they left i cried because i missed them already. i know this is a diet journal but here my diet is like hectic mayhem. i can't wait until the 8th week and i can say i have went through the whole program first riverwoods next peace corp. hooah i guess lmao

June 3

About to do this community awareness training (c.a.t.). This shall be interesting especially with 24 other people in one apartment. But hopefully it won't be too too bad. I forgot why I started this blog but I am going to continued it because it helpful. So I don't think I'm outgoing enough. But I'm hoping to come more out of my shell because I do want to be more outgoing. Umm thats all I have for tonight I'm tired and sore from all the cleaning I did today. This is better than my internship at aiken because they have something for us everyday and we have bosses that we can actually talk to. At Aiken I saw I boss like twice a week and I never had anything to do. SRS was the worst job I ever had. I quit that job so quick and went back to school. I guess that what I would do in real life if I found a job I really hated I would quit it and go back to school to get more education. But does that make me a quitter or does that make me ambitious? And why do I continuously bring up my Aiken internship like I'm haunted by it. Is my Aiken internship haunting me in my thoughts? And why is Keesh fascination with this african pretty boy kinda lame to me. Am I jealous? Of some dang pretty boy. LOL can't be you know why because him or his friends (ben ten and havi) doesn't pay any girls any attention. Not to mention I have no time for men in my life right now anyways. Not to mention I don't want to be with a fanatic. And this identity theft lock thing is a ripped off because they want me to pay for them to protect my identity when I heard the man advertising the identity lock thing got his identity stolen. I would love to meet the man/woman who did that so I can shake their hand. This lil dominican republic whatever he is guy remind me so much of mj. He already wack in my head. I hope that katie, justin, shamel, some greedy headstrong person isn't in my group. LOL not trying to be mean but they just too headstrong and always trying to be in control. I need someone who is street smart so it won't be a living hell. lol jusqu'a la fois suivante

June 1

So today is the second day at camp this shit is wack. Lol kids dont come until the 14th how many days until i go home? 71 i believe i can do it. Aug plz hurry and come. This is hell. My wieght probably has increased but im doin P90X when i get back. Seriously. Jus'qu a la fois suivante.

May 30

So I'm here finally at Riverwoods after two planes and airports. Um nothing to report wanted to stick to my diet hard when you doing all this traveling but ima going to try to stick to it I guess. Riverwoods is pretty now waiting for the kids to come. Hopefully these two months go by fast so I can go back home and finish school. I'm looking forward to what the future bring. Jus'qu a la fois.

May 23

Okay so i have slip a little off my diet but im making plans to get right back on it. So im going to get a physical and then im going to start the P90X program. I think a more structured program might work for me like the military. Hopefully it works it gives me a timeline so bye bye 50 lbs. I like jason statham health way of living no refined sugar or flour. High fructose corn syrup is the devil! Lol i will improve my health slowly but surely. I will do it. Jusqu'a la fois suivante.