So a suggestion from a friend: My Ideal Man

Okay my ideal man: Loyal he has to be loyal I have been through too many times where the man has left me for other woman or cheated or lied. I want him to want me and only me. Trust is a powerful word and to me it pretty much means making yourself vulnearable by giving someone all the tools they need to hurt you and trusting or believing that your love is enough and that they love or care for you enough not to use those tools to hurt you. Its kinda like giving a stranger rope not thinking that they would do anything with it but in the back of your mind hoping that one day they don't use that rope to hang you. So its a very risky(*rrriissskkkeee* lol)thing. My mom went through two divorces my brother's father and my father. 15 years and they divorce when i was 12 so i don't have any expectations of love lasting forever I would just hope that it did and I kinda want my guy to feel the same. I like artsy guys since I'm so into music all types of music I want a guy who is into the arts maybe not necessarily as a profession but at least a hobby. I download music like my life depends on it so thats a major part. I don't like the mushy gushy stuff but a considerate sorta sensitive thoughtful guy would do. I want someone who wants to take baths with me and wash my hair and we can cook together and laugh at each other. I want someone who I can massage and hug and hold onto really tight and I can go to sleep comfortably in their shirt and my panties(oooh tmi lol) in their arms. Basically I want someone who I am completely comfortable with and being with this person is like breathing. I want someone who I can sit in his arms on a sunny day when the wind is blowing and fall asleep. Someone I can dance with in the middle of anywhere even when there is no music playing. Someone that takes my breathe away I can stare into their eyes and everything disappear I forget to think and just simply live. Kinda live in their skin its so natural being with them is like be apart of them. When we are apart getting back to him is the only thing on my mind. To greet him with with hugs and kisses and someone who just looks at me with admiration and grabs me and pulls me to him like "im not letting you get away" My ideal man is someone who doesn't want me to go, to let go, or to let me go. Who wants to watch me sleep, who like to massage my feet, and to play wrestle with me. We can just lay by each other without touching each other and just feel that natural pull. The chemisty or chemical reaction between us is crazy and someone who grabs my face and kisses me like the world is coming to an end. Someone who will go to church with me and hold my hand go to public places and say "look world I got the most beautiful wonderful intelligent woman in the world hear me rawr! she's all mines none for you :P" lol maybe not all that but just some embellishments. Someone who take the time to make plans for us and feed me food and go to war for me. Someone to go to the end of the earth for me someone who will open his heart and swallow me whole and keep me warm and safe. Someone who makes future plans with me someone who forgets what life was like without me. Someone who lays beside me and just rub his fingers lightly against my skin and just admires every inch of my body. Someone who may have indiscretions like loses his temper but calms down and talks about it so I can listen and support him. Someone who loves me when im bald (i've been bald before it was cute lol) and when i have hair (thinking about locking my hair hell i've done eveyrthing else lmao) Someone who will carry a picture of me around in his wallet and when tempted by other girls thinks of what it will do to me and decides that it isn't worth. My ideal man sits and plays scrabble with me and he may not understand me (did I mention I'm a math major so yea everything is formula and calculations)but takes the time to try to understand me. Someone who will walk on the beach with me at night (best time to be at the beach it breathtaking) and kisses me constantly (i like a lil p.d.a-> public display of affection). Someone who will drive me crazy I mean that literally but not mentally but someone who makes me think I have never had anything like this before. Someone who respects me and makes sure I'm okay and I can take care of him and nurse him back to health *wink wink* :) I want something real something rare something raw. Someone open honest who can communicate who can put everything on the line and say "here i know you're the one so here it is im giving you me and all i want back is to be able to love you for the rest of my life" and mean it. Integrity say what you mean and mean what you say. I want grow with him and go where I never thought I would go with him and to say you remember when. I want to build a book of memories with him. I want to give him a shit load of kids lol just kidding but I want to have his babies and help him raise them. I want to do weird awkward stuff with him and everyone be like "huh?" but me and him understands because its like we're one. We vibe he has all of me and I have all of him and the only thing that matters is that first kiss in the morning and and that last kiss at night and everything in between can be worked out. But as long I see his face and feel his touch and hold him breathe him in and feel his aura. And and and ok enough of that sappy shit. I wanna play sports with him and be his best friend. Pretty much his partner his other half. Something real something rare something raw.