Pushing 200 lbs!!!! Time for a change.

Okay so a few days ago I went to the nurse at my school because it has been awhile since I found out my weight and height and I just wanted to see if I grew any whether it be height wised or waist wised *i have been sleeping and eating alot lately due to the fact that my school sucks has very little physical activities to participate in around here and the food they are feeding us is program to slowly kill us or allow us to develop bad eating habits lol*. Anywayz I haven't grown height wised still 5' 4" give and take a few inches I always believe I was 5'5" due to the simple fact that I know a guy 5'4" and I'm taller than him lol. But my weight has increased I was 162 in high school then I got to college and I went to 180 and now I am currently 193!!!!! freaking pounds!!!!! Thats pushing 200 seriously and I always made a promise to myself that if I ever got to 200 or that close then I would turn my life around and change my nasty eating habit. I have been wanting to for the longest just never had a reason. I have always been overweight well according to health freaks that gives a healthy weight range to certain heights. My BMI is 33.2 or 33.1 something like that which is technically obese. My healthy weight range for my height is between 108-145 which is like huh??? There no way in hell I would ever get that small I mean I have never been that small that I can remember so I mean seems impossible. Its a nice dream but a possible reality?? very good question I don't have the answer to. So I have decided to use my blog as a way to take control of my life keep track of all my good and bad habits and try to turn my life around. Maybe if I see my actions in words then the impact of what I am doing to myself would be greater. Like right now instead of being in the bed sleep getting the rest my body needs to rejunvenate itself I am up at 4 a.m. because I laid down at 5 p.m. and didn't wake up until 11 p.m. So I know i won't be going to sleep anytime soon. First things first I need to get my sleeping clock right. And I just change my blog no more dark dreary expressive stuff everything is colorful. So I am 193 lbs and I really really want to get down to somewhere around high 130's and the low 140's. Thats a task thats like a half a person 60lbs is about as big as a child. But I'm going to try for the umpth time. I'm not going to speak a self fulfilling prophecy I'm going to beat it this time.