may 1

mother's birthday is two days away which means her birthday is monday. okay so today for breakfast i had grits and eggs and cereal and milk and for lunch i had 2 packs of oatmeal and applesauce i eat again at 3:30 then dinner is at 5:30 and last snack 7:30. so last night the whole ordeal with pontha has been erased from my memory the nerves. immature kid. anywayz i just want to finish school in december and look into this peace corps thing. until then im chillin. so i ate pinapples at 3:30 and i'm really really really freaking bored right now its not even funny. waiting for dinner to start then one more meal then sleep yea man im bored. im looking at asian men. it seems whenever a black man disappoints me i fall back on asian men. I'm not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing but its like I like asian men think they're cute and everything but the only time i actually think about them is after a black man has pissed me off. I'm sure this is an infatuation simply a phase and i will grow out it and ultimately i will end up with a black man. but hey you never know there are 1.8 million more black women then there are black men. i went to dinner didn't have food they had slop but anyways i ate burger and fries. got sleepy so i laid down and went to sleep and just woke up. oh i did manage to eat an orange after the dinner so at least i was somewhat healthy. thats it for today.