may 2

pout!! ugh i fell completely off the wagon not to mention i was up and everything ready to go to church and my sister decides to play hookie today. okay for a recap of last night it gets pretty ugly it started with applesauce then i ended up with a honey bun then 2 bags of bugles cheddar cheese kind i guess and olives. then i ate famous amos and a tea went to breakfast ate 2 pancakes eggs and grits and i just ate an orange which i really shouldn't have because now my stomach hurts. Man i need to learn self control and i didn't sleep last night so I know sooner or later i'm going to crash but i am hoping its later. way later like tonight so i can get up in the morning to take my finals that start at 12. got 2 tomorrow and 3 tuesday and im like i can wait until 6 tuesday because i would be done with finals until thursday when i take my last one at 8 am idk why i just went crazy last night i wanted to eat everything. probably because i was up. sigh im a little disappointed in myself because i started the whole weight loss thing and now raquel and the twins are doing it too and they can support each other i have no one to support me so i have to be stronger than what i was last night and maintain self control. i will do better next time. each day live is suppose to be an improvement from the previous one so last night is the past tonight won't be a repeat. i really want to do peace corps it seems like the more people get on my nerves the more determine i become to join the peace corps between my family and this school. they going to get me there faster. ok we went to olive garden for my moms birthday and i had grilled shrimp and some kind of pasta. and i eat the rest at like 9:30 i know still late but no late night snacking tonight. also i had a tea. anywayz im sleepy got an exam in the noon so im going to get some zzzzzzzz. until next time peace. i mean jusqu'a la fois suivante