May 13

I didn't wake up until 12 but i ate one bowl of cereal. And now it almost 4 and im having a ice cream cone and some water idk what im going to eat but im going to try and eat more at home because eating on the road results in eating too much fatty food. So at home im more health conscious. I think thats rite. So i ate chinese food for my last meal. I weighed myself and i gained a pound but i did just drink some water right before i got on the scale. So idk hopefully i can lose this weight. I hate sumter i want to start my life over brand new. I deserve better i deserve more. Makes me wonder if im ever going to get better. The black families are dwindling at a rapid pace. Am i ever going to find my significant other. I have found the key to my happiness rite now is to not to worry about it but i cant help but wonder. Is something wrong with me? Idk sometimes i wonder if its me. I just want a decent god fearing respectable trustworthy man. Not one with an alterior motive like most guys nowadays.